Puberty Two - that's what I call menopause:

 

A lot goes on in menopause such as the possible loss of sexual energy and the felt-sense wisdom of being a sexual being. I never wanted this to happen.  I never wanted my period to stop either because it gave me a fresh start every month.  Though I never wanted the preceding to happen, it did.

 

Though I tried to tweak my hormones myself, I never succeeded.  I succumbed to integrative medical care and am pleased with the results.  Normal sleep, energy, and relationships with life returned other than my inner fire, my sexual/life force energy.

 

This energy created an inner glow.  I noticed that the proportion of male attention directed at me equaled the level of my inner glow.  They both dwindled.

 

I never was "a hot tomato" nor did I screw around. I liked attention from men who interested me.  It's an amazing experience to age and become invisible.

 

At 13 years, etc, during Puberty 1, males were too interested in me.  I had to push them away, protect myself, and worry about my reputation.  There is a long story here which I am grateful that I don't remember much of.  Here are the multiple bottom lines:

·        Teacher's blamed me for boy's interest in my body

·        Parents, mine and others, trusted me

·        Boys made up stories

·        Stories wounded me

Those wounds of not trusting males and having to protect my body and reputation stayed with me until menopause. 

 

The Good News is this! I did learn a few things between 13 and 52 and a healthy societal shift decreased the double standard and gender roles.  The women's movement and men's responsiveness to this movement helped immensely.  Therefore, it was time to begin a new journey: One that I made up -- not society or my parents or teachers or peers.  This is when Puberty 2 began - I yearned to become a more open and joyous being.

I found White Tantric Kriya Yoga and practiced it. I developed Happy Hormones which is different than hormone happy.  Transcendental non-cognitive energy filled me up.  I felt like a woman again, matured and savvy with greater self-trust and societal acumen.  Attracting the opposite sex came easily.  I learned age had little to do with attraction.  Attraction comes from chemistry.  When you have it, you have it and both men and women sense it.

A long time friend and I became romantic.  I always classed him "as not being my picture."  It turned out that he became my best mate.  Someone I truly loved and realized that "the picture" is more than physical appearance. However, "not my picture" did include essential relationship qualities which are relationship lacked. Both of us did a "let go," as sad as it was.

 

As mature adults, we know that the other shoe drops.  Life means change and how we change with changes is the key to our happiness/wellness.  After the breakup, though it was a sound decision, I hurt and went Internal. This was good. 

 

Like a sprout shouting up in Spring, I surface into this New Year desiring White Tantra enhancement for myself and to teach others through Advanced OceanaBodywork.  If you are a woman entering menopause or 20 years into post menopause, White Tantra works!  My role is to facilitate and grow your life force (and mine) through Advanced OceanaBodywork.  Let's call it Sassy Blissful Wisdom.

 

The meditations in Advanced OceanaBodywork activate the vital organs and their juices accelerating whatever hormonal therapies you are on or not on.  I wish for you to try it and feel it for yourself.